BACK AROUND

Today was a interesting day i would have never even thought about it i was just having a conversation with a brother of mine my little sister came out of my parents house handed me the phone it took me a quick second to cacth the voice she wanted to stop by i thought about it yeah why not at first i didnt really want that but when it was said and done it was good to see her im not sure if she reads my writing but if you do GREAT seeing you peace one thing that was kinda funny was that last hug the other woman gave me right in front of her even my brother peeped that that second hug was a little more tighter then the first one its funny the things these woman do for attention the next time i see her i will mention this i cant help it i have too

STRANGE

It was good to see my family two days ago they drove up from atlanta or the A as we like to call it for some reason i always get caught up in the moment and forget to take pictures or better yet video now a day its still strange though i dont know why it seems like its always something bad that gets family together there is alot of shit going on and a whole lot of health issues going on with my relatives serious ones that tend to run deep in most black familys even without those issues its still so much going on alot stress alot of stress alot of stress im still focused striving to keep it as positive as i can and stay far away from negativity two things i know that are promised in life as i know it are pain and death the only way to deal with it is to deal with it now im not saying its easy because its damn sure not there are alot of things that bother me each and everyday i do my best not to show it its like wearing a mask

I REMEMBER

As i sit here its dark the only light i have is from the tablet that i am writing on i remember this day like it was yesterday it was a new years eve it was also in the late 90's era i went to the crib out west philly nobody was there at the time i think i had to smoke atleast two blunts to the head and took a couple shots of vodka one of those popular names at that time i remember getting pretty nice so i started to clean one of the random hand guns sitting around if my memory serves me correct it was a 9mm i broke it down cleaned it and all i remember i kept cocking it back just to make the bulliet keep poping out and cacthing it some cowboy gun crazy shit i guess i know i did this several times i was really buzzed by now so the phone rang i cant renemeber who i was talking too on it but i know i was talking away swinging the gun around all dumb in the mist of me drinking and playing with the gun i pulled fhe trigger and shot a hole right in the wall man my ears were ringing like crazy thats the very first time i learned not to play with guns now when i say play with guns im not talking about if you have to do what you gotta do thats something different shit i could have blown my own head off

PREPARATION

Ok the last couple of days ive been sticking to the script when i say sticking to the script i mean studying reading writing and being creative comeing up with some great ideas getting ready to work on some of these progects

ROUTINE

Well while everybody was out at cook outs and more then likely drinking and smokeing i once again decided to just fall back and gather my thoughts i do recall reading in the 48 laws of power where it speaks on absence more and more i see it to be true dont spoil people with your presence all in all today turned out pretty well