FEELINGS

What a day what a day a long ass day in court eventhough I was there to support my younger cousin court is court now since I been on both sides before you know being sentenced and watching other people get sentenced I still can't escape that erie feeling of being there in my own personal experience I never seen anything good come out of it one way that made it easier for me to deal with it is the fact of me knowing that atleast I'm walking out of this bicth for some reason I seem to keep having a strong feeling that other people's emotions keep rubbing off on me it's like some empath shit that's one of the main reasons I strive to actively avoid the dumb shit ps. Tomorrow will be another one of those days of me seeing another one of my great brothers body in a casket R.I.P CHI peace king I got you in my Memorys!

REMEMBER

sitting with the brothers watching some football and got some disturbing news that another one of my brothers died it fucked me up one of the coolest dudes I have ever met and talented with that rap shit I love you sun peace

MISTAKE

Its been a while since ive been here alot has happened alot of death and pain i once again had the chance to experience how deceptive a black woman can be i reconnected with one that came really close to the mentality i desire i sat in the car with her and listened as she talked to this guy i really felt un easy about that i did like the chick but my trust was shaken its already hard enough to trust woman as is i told her i didnt think it was a good idea for her to meet my children i should have stuck to that but i did bend what she didnt know was i have a uncanny act of predicting the future i knew what she was going to do im thankful that my babies are smart enough for me to talk too about things like this this we had our last convo not long ago i wished her the best she did too but it really doesnt matter she really had no idea who and what i really am.........besides that i took a ride over to bmoore with two escort friends of mine named yummy and extacy they put me on to some white dude trick that payed for there service im still kinda laughing when i came in the room homie was butt naked that was one of the easiest robberys ever 5,000 in cold cash i broke them off a little something once we headed back to my spot the poped a couple pills and started getting a little freaky one thing lead to another next thing i know it was a threesome poping off just another crazy night in my life ps...........i thought she was the one oh well if i dont have one im stay with 100 peace

DEATH

Another ruff time for my physical family or relatives last night my aunt rest her soul returned to the essence another one dies from one of the worst disease known to man cancer brain cancer she was really a wonderful woman she was also my mothers only sister i dont know whats its like to loose a physical relative another tuff time im sure the family will make it through we always do at the end of the day we really dont have a choice all her sibilings are taking it as good as you can there still so much going on it is hard but i will continue to stay strong and focused PEACE AUNT LINDA 09/08/2013 i love you you taught me alot PEACE